Ramblings........... sorry!

Sometimes things happen that make you stop & realise how lucky you are.

Its not the big things that hit you, but the little ones.

Last Tuesday was my friend Debis anniversary, a year since we lost her wonderful presence, and I was missing her so much.

No matter how you explain its hard for people who have never had the pleasure of Debis unique personality to understand why she is so missed by those who knew & loved her.

Debi was always a person who didnt let life get her down, she was sick from an early age, and lived with kidney problems for a long long time, eventualy recieving a transplant from her brother, She survived Cancer and all its related treatments, and she was several years "clear" of the dreaded 'c', She spent a lot of her last years in a wheelchair due to problems with her bones, but anyone talking to her online or in person would never know how much pain she was in, or what she had been thru in her life, she would never tell people unless they asked her, and she was always so positive that no-one would realise.

Some of you will know about our baby Charlie being sick with Kidney failure, and this is one of the reasons I am missing Debi so much, I cant describe how much I want to talk this over with Debi & get her opinion on whats happening with him cos I know she would understand.

Last Tuesday I had a realy bad day, I am struggling sometimes to realise its been a whole year already, it only seems 2 minutes since I was last talking to her, I miss her crazy sense of humour so much.
When I got home from work Tuesday evening I had a small envelope addressed to me, from Debis neice Sarah, with an invitation to her Graduation on Friday, along with the sweetest note saying that she knew I couldnt attend, but that they missed me, and she wanted me to have an invitation as a keepsake............. its only a small thing, but it means the world to me, cos she thought to send it all this way to me.

Tuesday evening I posted about Sarahs lovely gesture in one of my groups, and a friend did something totaly unexpected, and made me sit here crying, she will never understand quite how much it meant to me that she reached out to me when I was feeling so down.

Friday night, about 2 or 3 am UK time my Mobile (cell) phone beeped, and there was a message on it from Ashley, Sarah's younger sister, it didnt say a lot, just "Sarah looked gorgeous, we miss you, and we wish you were here"............

3 things which are all small things in themselves, but they all meant such a lot to me in their own way.

OK I have rambled on n on here so I will shut up now......

Anniie